I Started A Joke

A tongue in cheek blog offering a challenge for you to face some truths in a way that might upset you (or offend you, if you use that frail and foolish defense), and perhaps, a way for some part of me to vent the fuck yous inspired by the stupidity of the people in this world. I smell your fear, and it stinks. It repulses me so much more than it attracts me. I may be repulsed because I do not want the base instinct to kill or eat animals, for self-preservation or survival. Threatening or threatened? It's all in your mind, you know? Until the teeth are bared.

Then, it's either a smile or a threat, life or death, how can you be sure?

I Will

I will challenge your intelligence (if you have any), patience (whether you have any or not), and sensibilities (what the fuck are sensibilities, anyway? I will upset your morality and mess with your reality. You will want to put me in jail or a mental institution, but you will not get your way. Life is not fucking fair. Live with it. Or don't.

Ready?

ASSHOLES!

That's Not Love

If you think love hurts, you don't know love. True love is without any intended harm and I challenge the harms you claim that love causes. Your morality causes the harm, not the love. Your fear causes the harm, not the love. Your power trip causes the harm, not the love. Control freaks, everyone. Can you really let go? Give up all control? For most people, love becomes immoral if it doesn't follow their rules, if they can't control it. If you think any love, including physical love, is immoral, then you don't differentiate love from fear or power trips. How can love be immoral, any sort of love? Go ahead, tell me your rules.

That's not love.

The Blind See More Than You

Meanwhile, as the empire falls, you pretend you care about superficial crap, learned from your soap operas no doubt, and you obviously don't care about life or the human race. Self-destruction is what you are best at. Suicidal games are what you call fun. Consume your poisons and lies and destroy yourselves and everyone else because that is the human way. Too immature for your intelligence, so stupid are your choices. You fear, you hate, you condemn anything that doesn't agree with your fear-driven narrow views. Pitiful weakness pretending you are strong because you can buy or bully your way into control through shared delusions and pretenses. You find power and money amazing and follow blindly. Watch your soap operas. Don't look around, reality TV has become real. Your tiny minds suffer fools gladly.

Madness Leads

What are you doing here? You must be a Republican. The white man's party. Still believing the south will rise again and maybe the only ones stupider than Democrats are you lot, following billionaires as if they care about you. You must love to be lied to because all around you, your lives prove you are being lied to. Trickle down delusions. Are you living better than your parents? You want to go back to the fifties but who can afford to have a one income family anymore? How can you believe in small government when your leaders want government to control people's life decisions. You're as bad as the other religious extremists and pretend you are oppressed when all you want to do is oppress others. Trying to control everything pretending you care about people when all you do is care about yourselves and money. Suicidal choices at every turn, just like the dinosaurs. Over-consuming for profit, short sighted planning, greed and fear control you and you want to control everyone else. Madness leads you around like Nero fiddling while the world burns down. Push the button already, get it over with, you don't deserve this planet.

Masochrist

What the fuck are you doing here? You must be a Democrat looking to get beat up some more. Pathetic. Your self-destruction skills are your best quality. One by one, hiding in your liberal bubbles, you implode. The other side is more organized and much better at manipulation, so they self-destruct on a global scale. The end of the species isn't far off, a cancer consuming itself. The planet will only tolerate imbalance for so long. The universe too. You fight your petty control-freak battles as if there's some profound meaning to your lives and all the pain you inflict on each other is nothing compared to what the planet is going to do with you. Fools. Masochists. Pray to your gods, as if. It's not nice to fool Mother Nature.

Betrayals

That's what human beings are best at, betrayals. The biggest fools in this world are those who continue to trust after betrayals. Each betrayal, trust is a higher risk. How many can you stand before you give up, before you just can't trust anymore? Twice? Thrice? How many scars can your heart take before it loses it's flexibility. It is a muscle, after all, and scar tissue does not have the flexibility that unscarred muscle tissue has. Even if it's metaphorical. Maybe that's why people screw each other over without a second thought. How many screws have you turned? You probably don't even know anymore. You probably don't even know that the one you betray most is yourself.

Give Away Hate

I want to give away my hate. I don't want to keep it. There is too much around, so little room for mine. Chemists call it osmosis, more coming in than going out. In a hate-filled world, my ate isn't even noticed. Everyone is competing for hate space. You can hate for any reason, it's popular now. Riding a wave. Hate is leading. Hate is winning. Just look around.

Scared

Life on he street is scary. Those who have been there know. Those who live there now know too well. Should have known better than to trust someone. Should have known better than to let someone in. Should have known better than to depend on someone for survival. People can't be trusted. Everyone is out for themselves and will abandon you the moment you have nothing left to give. It is still the same old story. The fight for love and glory. A case of do or die. Fundamental. Funda. Fun.

Narf.

So Stupid

The high and mighty woman running for President thinks she can't be touched or stopped and her followers are already crowning her but the spoiled reality TV bully manipulates stupid people so well, he will beat her by beating the drums of your fears.

You are all so stupid.

Fear

You damn yourself with your fear.   You condemn yourself with your arrogance.   You humiliate yourself with your ignorance.   You defeat yourself with your hate.   You expose yourself with your greed.   You undermine yourself with your over-confidence.   You amuse yourself     with your self-destruction.   You fool yourself with your pride.   You destroy yourself with your delusions.   Feign Confusion.   You are human.

Believe what they tell you to believe.

Fear.

i think i'll offend you now

a while back you might have known me, or thought you did, and it kinda makes you wonder (cuz you are like that) do we really prefer to be told what to do how to be what we are why to be... did it ever occur to you, you are not me?... now i'll go on a bit and give you a reason not to be... to reduce the excess baggage and feel better alive in this physical world where the senses are god if you overcome fear (it's really not that hard) just let go of the cards and whatever turns up is your hand to play on your own or you could join a band and dream you understand as you create your own wonderland... so what will it be are you heaven or hell or somewhere in between or too afraid to tell do you avoid yourself and live up on a shelf with your books that take all of your money and health and leave you with a false sense of wealth as if after you die you be rewarded for denying the truth in yourself... oh did i offend, did you want the truth stealth, well there's the door, don't let me stop you, go follow somebody else...

hate yourself

you do it so well,
you do my job for me

prognosis, death

you are going to die,
get over it

things change

no really, you used to pretend you cared so much better than you do now...

did you come here for comfort?

did you come here for love or peace or something that might please you?... did you expect to find something that would inspire your smile?... did you think you would be understood here, or find some understanding you could relate to?... you must be another delusional fool like everybody else...

why don't you just die?

you say you will be rewarded after you die... you say you will be in a better place after you die... you say you will are waiting for the end of the world so you can die and go to a perfect wonderland, a heaven...

so why don't you just die?

you lie so well, it sucks

and in the end, you've got nothing because you have nothing but lies... you have nothing real... you have nothing that matters... a whole lotta pretense, a whole lotta faking it, a whole lotta lies... you can fuck a lot and create children with three different partners and pretend you are loved, but it is bullshit when you use and abuse each other and everyone who ever tried to care about you... anyone who really knows you know that every time you said you cared, you lied... the most honest thing you ever did was admit this...

institutional pedophelia

this is a good question, who dares to answer... who cares enough?... most people won't even go near the question... but the fact is the church has done an amazing job of covering up pedophelia for years... the church defends and protect and hides pedophiles... the church gives pedophiles easy access to children and a safe place to fondle children's genitals and rape children...

do you think pedophiles don't know that?...

think, fools, any organization that actively hides, protects, defends, and supports pedophilia will attract more pedophiles... and you support that?...

and in the end

whatever end we might be looking at, is the love you save really equal to the love you gave?... is the love you made equal to the love you saved or gave?... is the love you gave equal to the love you made or saved?... and regardless of balance, what is made?... what is saved?... and really, no lies, what did you give?... until you answer that last question honestly, at least for yourself, you don't even know who you are... you cry at weddings, why?... you cry remembering tragedies, why?... what do your tears do for anyone outside of yourself?... and who really wants to know they ain't done nothing yet, not nada, no no how, in all you do, you don't give a thing...

feel free to prove me wrong...

and the friends

sure, there are some people in this world who have called themselves friends and even lovers and even family, but does anybody really care enough to help when you hit bottom?... who would take care of you if you had an accident and could no longer walk, or see, or feed yourself, even?... do you have a someone in your life who cares that much?... some lucky few might, and some may think so, but most people do not treat caring as a verb... most people just talk a great game when it comes to unconditional love, but show me where it is really happening in actions...

it can happen, i know, i do it... do you?

besides the love

all the love and emo and wonderful positivity and hopeful optimism and belief in goodness and kindness and the beauty in everyone that fills some f the other blogs is not to be completely discounted, after all, the cynical realist who sees how humanity damns itself to it's delusions of hell through self-destructive and cruel human choices and actions just may be wrong about the inevitable destiny of humanity being species suicide, but this blog is here to allow for the possibility that humanity is too blind, deaf, and dumb to stop killing itself cuz if that is the way it's gonna be, well i, for one, am not going quietly along with the fucking bullshit that calls itself humanity...

love, love, love... let me know when it gets here.

fuck frack

i mean, fuck the hell out of the pretentious bullshit that produces words like frack and fracking as if it could possibly convey the power and meaning of the word fuck... as if there were fucking alternatives to the convey the emotion you want to convey when you feel like saying fuck or fuck this shit or fuck you... of course you might not mean what you are understood to mean cuz fuck as there are so many meanings for the word fuck... so why the fuck add frack to the language when we already have a perfectly great and amazingly versatile fucking word like fuck in the first place... fucking language nazis...

detroit casket

cars are about love and death for most people, we love them to death, we love to watch others die in them, just look at the most popular spectator sport in the usa, auto racing, and ask yourself - do you really pay money to watch cars go around and around and around and around and around and around and around and around and around and around and around and around and around and around and (another 100 or 200 or more times) a track for hours on end or are you really there to see a car smash up and fly through the air and explode?... like you've never slowed down to see if there were bodies on the road as you drive past an auto accident on the street, right... stop being hypocrites and own up to your obsessions...

how long has this been going on?

who the fuck cares?

you miss most of it

that's right, you miss most of it, it being everything (not just past entries, as if they mattered)... you are so afraid of everything, even afraid of missing something, of not knowing, of not being in control, that you can't focus your senses enough to truly experience anything enough to actually get it... you want to possess, to own, to control, to master... but you just don't get it...

sad pathetic fool...

it's the bullshit

not bullsugar for the language nazis among us, but pure unadulterated bullshit that fouls the waters and every human interaction possible, i mean, have you ever really truly without any doubt met an completely honest person?... how about a person who does not lie? (yes, there is a difference, but i wouldn't expect you to distinguish that)... and i don't just mean about sex, but there's the subject that has produced the most human lies of all... and you thought it was money?... close second...

what do you want?

it's not just about fucking

what i mean is, this blog is not just about saying fuck this and fuck that and dropping the word fuck everywhere, or, as if calling the word an f-bomb really makes a difference, no, this blog is not about what stupid pricks with control freak issues might call offensive language (which is one of the most popular of all the human hypocrisies, after all, it's much better to lie and cheat and use someone with language than to come right out and be honest - i mean, you meet someone you really want to fuck but you instead say i love you when you hardly even know them just to get them naked and that is not abusive language, right?)...

george carlin would understand...

but what if i'm not angry?

in all seriousness i am really quite a happy person... most of the time i am not angry, but that's ok cuz all i have to do is look around at what human beings do to each other and to children and to animals and to the planet and a good fuck this shit comes right up on me...

if that doesn't happen to you, well, fuck you too...

free trial

life must be a free trial period for whatever comes next because there is no way anyone who knew the truth would record this crap for any reason, though egos are fragile and deluded enough to think someone might care, i supposed...

so what...

caring

The delusion of caring that passes for caring among humans, like most human delusions, repulses me.

If this is too real for you, fuck off.

random time

sometimes the date and time stamped on an entry in this or any blog has great meaning and sometimes, perhaps most times, it is meaningless... you can only have a clue as to which is which or when if you ask for it, but be prepared, for the answer may be a whole lot more than you are looking for... you can fuck yourself for being a superficial twit and get pissed on or you can suck it up and swallow your pride if you really want to know something... but chances are, you have no clue as to what you really want to know... no wonder you get those odd silent stares when you speak...

if you only knew the truth about your limited conscious awareness, you'd realize that most of the time you are getting fucked up the ass while giving someone a blowjob anyway and you don't even know it...

what time is it now?...

this is not for you

you don't care enough to get it, like most humans, maybe even all humans, so this is not for you except when i am telling you to fuck off because you don't care enough to get it... this is the where only the truest hearts, the most honest minds, and the most aware beings might find a shred of connection amidst the vitriol and sloppy farts... after all, if someone spits on you you likely take offense, but if a lover drools in your mouth you you likely continue sucking on her tongue... it's a matter of perspective and you are definitely not a lover or in any way an intimate...

if you think this does not apply to you, apply within...

if you dare...

you don't know what love is

you think you do, or maybe thought you did, but if you stop sharing your love then you do not love... you can tell yourself you care and you can tell yourself you hurt and create all sorts of rationale in your head for not sharing, but love is not love unless it is shared... the bullshit most people pass off as love is neediness, insecurity, or superficial hormonal impulses that lead to disappointment and pain, even tragedy, because the expectations are much higher than you can give, unless you love... what you do is fear and seek communal comfort to quell your fear, but that is not love... get over your fears and you may begin to understand...

keep your delusions to yourself

i mean, unless we are sleeping together, sharing intimate space, or actually bodily fluids, your delusions are your delusions and i do not want them in my way... whether you think there are spirits in the sky or ghosts in your belfry or even some rodent that can predict the weather, i am not interested in your mental illness unless we actually are sharing something real... if you do not get this, you are probably deluded so before you hurt yourself, just shut up and go away...

if i wanted you to read this i would tell you about it

you are probably just another asshole like most humans, ignorant of your own sensory ability, blinded by the fears you've been taught since before you could walk or talk or think for yourself, condemned to stupidity for your entire life, and worst of all, buying the belief that your life actually means something profoundly wonderful... it's all bullshit, get over it, and wake up... if you aren't laughing, you missed the point, no probably about it...

stupidity reigns

the hypocrites rule, even if you miss out, you will dig your own grave in the end... elect another corporation... pray to another king... give into your fears and give up your rights and freedoms, it's easier when you are not responsible for your actions, when you are told what to do, when you don't have to think...

because nobody cares enough

people pretend to care, but nobody really cares enough... the bullshit people claiming to emulate the jesus character are the worst as they bleed hypocrisy, condemning and killing and creating poverty and starvation and hatred while pretending they are righteous and holy... those emulating other supposedly good kind and loving savious are no better... they pretend goodness as they are killing their neighbors... they are worms feeding on the corpse of humanity...

don't wanna be angry

but fuck this humanity hypocrisy and if you don't know what i mean, you just may be a moron and part of it, but before i say fuck you too, i'll give you the chance to explain... and in case you ever gave a fuck, whatever is not considered an explanation...

you were never here

you never read this

all you never knew

came before...