Thursday, December 16, 2010

wasting time?

writing is a way of life for me and yet, why do i bother writing to people who do not respond, or worse, to people who do not even care to notice i am writing?... people suck sometimes, especially those who say they care and show interest for a little while and then prove they never actually did care by disappearing and worse, ignoring any attempts to stay connected in any way... it's worse when someone tells you (and shows you) they love you and want you to be their whole world... love is a waste on humans, they have no concept of how to do it or what it truly can be... why believe people can mean what they say?... why believe people can be trusted?... why believe people care when they so obviously do not?... fuck 'em all...

Monday, November 08, 2010

Thursday, October 28, 2010

no matter how much the wish

is valued, that is, no matter how much value is played on the wish, the power still lies with the grantor, not the wisher... and so it goes, the grantor sucks to ignore the wish and all that's left to do is say fuck you and keep on wishing... unless you are ready to devalue and compromise your wish... and whether that makes you a rational human or a pussy is all a matter of perspective... go ahead, shoot your arrow and then paint your target around it, you've got the right to any illusion you can create amidst this delusional species called human... if it makes you happy...

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

you wanna start something?

let me know what/when i make a difference in your life...

Thursday, August 19, 2010

and then just as surely

fuckit :)

all the words are yesterday and today, nothing else matters (that came before) and i forget the hunger for your attention until i return, laughing, cuz the delusion is obvious and as meaningless as it can be...

Sunday, August 15, 2010

i. m. fool

so i will just keep deluding myself into believing my few minutes (or hours, sometimes) a day putting videos online in my own pop news blog (that amuses me with stories and information I find in the news or on youtube or somewhere, some tongue in cheek, some controversial, some serious, some irreverent) or in my more personal video me blog (where I put videos that touch me, reflect me, affect me, and in some ways, represent me)… and the time I take to write words in my current daily life blog which is what it is, a record of the life I live and it matters to me…

even if no one ever cares to share any of it…

and all the rest, the bullsugar and blogs of rhymes and prose i write and even the deleted pages (which I will do my best to find and re-upload one day cuz I care, again, even if nobody else ever does), they matter, even if that is just my delusion and I am a fool for believing it…

but I’m not…

(the title lies)

Sunday, August 01, 2010

101

caring 101 as if it is so hard to grasp... that's right, a hundred and one posts right here and how many of them have you missed?... of course, you are way too busy to care enough to actually keep in touch, all of you who claim to care... almost fifteen hundred entries in the primary daily blog and how many have you read, no less left a caring word or two that would actually make your so called caring real... yeah, yeah, i know, time is relative and it's the thought that counts and all that jazz...

and how many thoughts included me?

you want positivity, go elsewhere, you'll find the reality of your caring, or lack thereof, reflected back at you it you ever show up here... the worst part is you actually think you do care...

one more daily delusion bought and sold...

word.

Monday, July 26, 2010

years of nothing

so easy to see proof that you do not care, so easy to see the shallow lies you tell, so easy to see the superficial facade you try to sell to the world and so easy to see how the world buys it... you are the world, you kill the children... and then you write songs and stories to celebrate what you call truths and glories... why would anyone not delusional want to be near you?...

Saturday, July 24, 2010

rem jewel and metal bugs

deep sleep dreams last for but the briefest moment and in the end, the saved gave nothing back to the world but fear and oppression and nightmares (they needed to create the darkness and fear of the darkness to sell the light), so nothing else matters, who knows (tomorrow?)...

like you could care less...

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Monday, June 28, 2010

abstract or concrete thought

People are mostly confused, delusional, and afraid to actually think for themselves, therefore their thoughts are relatively meaningless whether they are abstract or concrete as they are "hive" or collective thoughts and not individual thoughts, rendering all irrelevant.

Tuesday, June 08, 2010

the joke

or not so joke is that i am one of the people laughing at the ridiculousness of egocentric insecurity that compels us to pretend that anybody might care to know every little thing about me or you or anyone as if something important like happiness or world peace rests on writing these words...

wait, it's time for my next tweet...

narf.

Sunday, May 30, 2010

hurt hurts

some people just want to hurt you because they hurt and the don't want to hurt alone... the trouble is, they could kill you...

protect yourself...

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

you don't care

if you did, you'd have change the world a long time ago... but what did you do today?... did you hurt someone?... did you lie to someone?... did you waste something?... did you think about some kid starving somewhere or the people who died in the past hour? (every hour)... what is in your garbage?... what is in your heart?...

you think no one sees?...

.

.

.

exactly...

Friday, April 30, 2010

the day before

the day before you learned how fucked up people can be, how cruel, how selfish, how mean, how unbelievably cold...

it was a good day...

Sunday, April 04, 2010

trust no one

bitter angry sadness is bubbling down deep cuz ATT did what Disney and Lycos and Yahoo and others did before, suddenly blocked acces to web pages before i could download them and save them... yeah, AT&T fucked me... Disney fucked me... Yahoo fucked me... Google?... not yet... thousands of pages, 90% of my written gardens online, gone in an instant... corporate america could care less about people...

why should i...

fuck AT&T...

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

whatevery-er

whatever could possible be the reason behind continuing when there is nothing redeeming about this human life anymore and there is no hope that any of the humans will understand true enlightenment in this lifetime?...

posterity?... whatevery...

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

you don't get it

unless you see the laughter behind the insults (fuck you) and the truth within the message (fuck me) because the whole point is to separate the idiots from the morons and those in between from those who think eating at mcdonalds is a celebration from those who only eat the center cut of cow and those who believe life is defined by five senses and the egocentric self-serving narrow view humans take of everything because they are so afraid and will kill rather than admit it, so arrogant, really, but judgments and killing seem to give that false sense of security and power that people think they need, delusional species that humans are...

yeah, you, you don't get it...

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Thursday, February 04, 2010

if you take any of this seriously

you are an idiot... but then, you had to know that was coming, look where you are... here again?... i mean, again?... obviously, you are wrong, because it you do not take this seriously, you just prove the point, nobody cares, so why should you...

so why are you here, really?

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

you really don't care

it shows in all your silences, in your pretenses, in your hypocrisy and obvious manipulations... yes, you, i am talking about you... stop looking around, you know who you are... you really don't care...

so why do you keep trying to pretend you do?

Saturday, January 16, 2010

do you pick your nose when you snore?

most people do, you know, and you never know it because nobody who sees you do it has the heart to tell you because it's embarrassing for both of you and people are naturally awkward to begin with so avoiding nose picking snorers like yourself is an obvious choice...

but i'll tell you cuz i'm a sadist...

Friday, January 01, 2010