Friday, December 25, 2009

he so did not say that!

fuck xmas and the donkey it rode in on...

Tuesday, December 01, 2009

no really, you don't

i mean, want to know cuz if you did, you'd be like all over the net searching and googling and binging and pinging and ponging and bonging and caterwalling about how unfair to local twelve it is that you don't...

know, that is...

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

antiblogdistablishmenterrorism


what would you be doing right now if the internet was not here?

Friday, October 30, 2009

faking it

the caring, the concern, the seriousness of life, the religious beliefs, the political ideology, the philosophical ponderings, the physical passion, the financial success, the togetherness, the responsibility, the regularity of entries, the righteous indignation, the amusement, the emotion, everything can be faked and usually is...

pretend otherwise and you are just faking it...

Sunday, October 11, 2009

swine flu

if you, the government, a major drug company, big brother, sister, or yes, if you were experimenting with bio-engeneering or genetic manipulations or drugs and believed you found a drug that would make everyone calm and happy or easily manipulated or a genetic marker for passivity that could be triggered with a certain chemical, how would you convince everyone in the world to let you inject that chemical into their bodies for their own good?...

Friday, September 18, 2009

people care

people only care when they want to.

Friday, September 11, 2009

people love to hate

just look at what attracts the most people the most... the news is all about death and destruction, abuse and victimization, who to heat and/or fear... news you need to know they tell you...

people also love to judge others badly and laugh at others... just look at the tabloid papers and tv shows from talk to celebrity gossip to cop shows to reality tv shows... people love to watch conflict and ridicule and other people behaving badly or stupidly...

people love to celebrate death and destruction...

people suck, really...

Friday, August 21, 2009

yeah, today

I remember, but what is the point, really, if nobody cares (interacts to accept the caring, cha)?...

Saturday, August 01, 2009

fighting is caring

if you don't care about yourself, anybody caring about you is working against you and faces a struggle with you, so anybody caring for you is picking a fight with you... so picking a fight with someone is caring...

think about it...

Friday, July 17, 2009

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

why care?

life is momentary, so people justify caring because they believe there's some benefit after death, care because it gets you into heaven...

and if there is no heaven?...

Monday, June 01, 2009

lol

wait just a doggarn minute... are we laughing at the irony of this blogging conversation with no one? (shhhh, we create our own illusions you know and i appreciate the humor of the illusion you help me to create)... talking about real people here and there and especially in thereal with you, as if you are real too... yeah baby, he's a real nowhere man, cha cha cha (narf :)

we now return you to your regularly scheduled bitching...

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

caring is a verb




if you don't do it, you don't.

but you probably think and say you do, don't you?


Monday, May 04, 2009

people are really so disappointing



death is probably the best end for us all...


Monday, April 13, 2009

full of shit

most people are... and i don't mean that most people are fat and eat way more than their bodies need so they produce a lot of fecal material and fill toilets and sewers and landfills a whole lot more than they need to, but that's true too, at least as far as i can see... i mean most people lie all the time... most people don't care what is truth and what is a lie because they lie to themselves... they say what they think they should say... they say what they think is right... they say what they think people want to hear... they say what they want to do, but all of it is mostly lies... husbands, wifes, bosses, friends, anybody... they just want their own needs met and will say or do anything to get it and unfortunately many have the power to get away with it...

we won't even get into the delusions that most people base their entire lives and identity on, thank goobers... the irony is hysterical once you know better, or just open your eyes to reason and the obvious... but most people don't... you're probably most people, so nevermind...

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

fuck you all

but first, fuck me... come on, somebody (but not just anybody, get that right), fuck me... and i don't mean screw me over, abuse me, betray me, take advantage of me, use me, or in any way do me wrong (i've had plenty of that in this life already thank you very much)... yeah, in some way (elusive or not) i am teling you all the fuck off because none of you care to come out of your holes (read: private lives) and actually share, none of you care to actually become part of real life offline (and again, i do not mean anybody, or you, even, but there are some people in this world who would be compatible with me (never met?... what?) and it is you few currently apathetic souls i am writing to most right here and now, fuck you for not fucking me...

or even just picking up the phone...

Friday, March 06, 2009

who cares?

i could write the most profoundly essential words, the concept that explains god or the universe or everything, the key to peace and happiness and universal understanding, and who cares?... like the dam tree faling in the forest, it's meaningless... and even if you read it, are you really going to do it?... are we really going to share it?... of course not, we'll just go on bullshitting ourselves with the daily drivel we make so important (usually based on money in this sick culture) and nod our heads at the words and then forget they even exist...

i dare you to prove me wrong...

Thursday, February 26, 2009

or perhaps the point is

the music above this or the words down below or the story in your eyes (go to the mirror boy?)... just listen and read and you'll find it if you want to and then it will matter... we cannot do everything at once, we cannot be everything to everyone, and we can only focus on one moment at a time if we truly want to make the most of the moment, enjoy it well, and share it completely... any less, and we waste it... so be in your moments, experience your choices, and regret only that you have the awareness of other desires you must pass on... there can be only one number one...

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Friday, January 02, 2009

i deserve better

i know i deserve better treatment from those with whom i interact... i deserve to be appreciated more... i deserve more consideration for my feelings and for my desires... i do not deserve to be ignored, to be used at everyone else's convenience and then disgarded, or at least put aside for weeks, months, or years only to be expected to pick up right where i left off giving unconditionally when someone wants something from me again... i know my giving ways allow people to take advantage of me and my choice to continue being me, to continue giving unconditionally, enables the users... i keep hoping i will find one human being who is not a user, but no such luck so far...

i know i deserve fairness and balance in my sharings, but it just does not happen and i continue because i am not going to be someone i am not just because no one else has the courtesy, fairness, consideration, caring, and love that i experience in me and give to others... it is their loss and my loss, but there is no other way... i will keep teasing, poking, prodding, and trying every way i can to present the idea (that all religions are based upon) that fear and selfishness and holding back is not the best way to be and that love is, honest open shared unconditional love... i will not care less, share less, love less, give less, be less... like the worst joke ever told, i'll be back (bock, even)...

fuck'em if they can't take a joke... or get it right :)