Friday, April 17, 2015

i think i'll offend you now

a while back you might have known me, or thought you did, and it kinda makes you wonder (cuz you are like that) do we really prefer to be told what to do how to be what we are why to be... did it ever occur to you, you are not me?... now i'll go on a bit and give you a reason not to be... to reduce the excess baggage and feel better alive in this physical world where the senses are god if you overcome fear (it's really not that hard) just let go of the cards and whatever turns up is your hand to play on your own or you could join a band and dream you understand as you create your own wonderland... so what will it be are you heaven or hell or somewhere in between or too afraid to tell do you avoid yourself and live up on a shelf with your books that take all of your money and health and leave you with a false sense of wealth as if after you die you be rewarded for denying the truth in yourself... oh did i offend, did you want the truth stealth, well there's the door, don't let me stop you, go follow somebody else...

Sunday, January 25, 2015

hate yourself




you do it so well,
you do my job for me




Wednesday, November 19, 2014

prognosis, death



you are going to die,
get over it



Monday, October 13, 2014

things change



no really, you used to pretend you cared so much better than you do now...




Tuesday, July 15, 2014

did you come here for comfort?

did you come here for love or peace or something that might please you?... did you expect to find something that would inspire your smile?... did you think you would be understood here, or find some understanding you could relate to?... you must be another delusional fool like everybody else...

Sunday, March 23, 2014

why don't you just die?

you say you will be rewarded after you die... you say you will be in a better place after you die... you say you will are waiting for the end of the world so you can die and go to a perfect wonderland, a heaven...

so why don't you just die?

Thursday, January 16, 2014

you lie so well, it sucks

and in the end, you've got nothing because you have nothing but lies... you have nothing real... you have nothing that matters... a whole lotta pretense, a whole lotta faking it, a whole lotta lies... you can fuck a lot and create children with three different partners and pretend you are loved, but it is bullshit when you use and abuse each other and everyone who ever tried to care about you... anyone who really knows you know that every time you said you cared, you lied... the most honest thing you ever did was admit this...

Wednesday, December 25, 2013

institutional pedophelia

this is a good question, who dares to answer... who cares enough?... most people won't even go near the question... but the fact is the church has done an amazing job of covering up pedophelia for years... the church defends and protect and hides pedophiles... the church gives pedophiles easy access to children and a safe place to fondle children's genitals and rape children...

do you think pedophiles don't know that?...

think, fools, any organization that actively hides, protects, defends, and supports pedophilia will attract more pedophiles... and you support that?...

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

and in the end

whatever end we might be looking at, is the love you save really equal to the love you gave?... is the love you made equal to the love you saved or gave?... is the love you gave equal to the love you made or saved?... and regardless of balance, what is made?... what is saved?... and really, no lies, what did you give?... until you answer that last question honestly, at least for yourself, you don't even know who you are... you cry at weddings, why?... you cry remembering tragedies, why?... what do your tears do for anyone outside of yourself?... and who really wants to know they ain't done nothing yet, not nada, no no how, in all you do, you don't give a thing...

feel free to prove me wrong...

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

and the friends

sure, there are some people in this world who have called themselves friends and even lovers and even family, but does anybody really care enough to help when you hit bottom?... who would take care of you if you had an accident and could no longer walk, or see, or feed yourself, even?... do you have a someone in your life who cares that much?... some lucky few might, and some may think so, but most people do not treat caring as a verb... most people just talk a great game when it comes to unconditional love, but show me where it is really happening in actions...

it can happen, i know, i do it... do you?

Thursday, August 15, 2013

besides the love

all the love and emo and wonderful positivity and hopeful optimism and belief in goodness and kindness and the beauty in everyone that fills some f the other blogs is not to be completely discounted, after all, the cynical realist who sees how humanity damns itself to it's delusions of hell through self-destructive and cruel human choices and actions just may be wrong about the inevitable destiny of humanity being species suicide, but this blog is here to allow for the possibility that humanity is too blind, deaf, and dumb to stop killing itself cuz if that is the way it's gonna be, well i, for one, am not going quietly along with the fucking bullshit that calls itself humanity...

love, love, love... let me know when it gets here.

Thursday, August 01, 2013

fuck frack

i mean, fuck the hell out of the pretentious bullshit that produces words like frack and fracking as if it could possibly convey the power and meaning of the word fuck... as if there were fucking alternatives to the convey the emotion you want to convey when you feel like saying fuck or fuck this shit or fuck you... of course you might not mean what you are understood to mean cuz fuck as there are so many meanings for the word fuck... so why the fuck add frack to the language when we already have a perfectly great and amazingly versatile fucking word like fuck in the first place... fucking language nazis...

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

detroit casket

cars are about love and death for most people, we love them to death, we love to watch others die in them, just look at the most popular spectator sport in the usa, auto racing, and ask yourself - do you really pay money to watch cars go around and around and around and around and around and around and around and around and around and around and around and around and around and around and (another 100 or 200 or more times) a track for hours on end or are you really there to see a car smash up and fly through the air and explode?... like you've never slowed down to see if there were bodies on the road as you drive past an auto accident on the street, right... stop being hypocrites and own up to your obsessions...

Thursday, July 04, 2013

Sunday, June 30, 2013

you miss most of it

that's right, you miss most of it, it being everything (not just past entries, as if they mattered)... you are so afraid of everything, even afraid of missing something, of not knowing, of not being in control, that you can't focus your senses enough to truly experience anything enough to actually get it... you want to possess, to own, to control, to master... but you just don't get it...

sad pathetic fool...

Monday, June 10, 2013

it's the bullshit

not bullsugar for the language nazis among us, but pure unadulterated bullshit that fouls the waters and every human interaction possible, i mean, have you ever really truly without any doubt met an completely honest person?... how about a person who does not lie? (yes, there is a difference, but i wouldn't expect you to distinguish that)... and i don't just mean about sex, but there's the subject that has produced the most human lies of all... and you thought it was money?... close second...

what do you want?

Sunday, May 26, 2013

it's not just about fucking

what i mean is, this blog is not just about saying fuck this and fuck that and dropping the word fuck everywhere, or, as if calling the word an f-bomb really makes a difference, no, this blog is not about what stupid pricks with control freak issues might call offensive language (which is one of the most popular of all the human hypocrisies, after all, it's much better to lie and cheat and use someone with language than to come right out and be honest - i mean, you meet someone you really want to fuck but you instead say i love you when you hardly even know them just to get them naked and that is not abusive language, right?)...

george carlin would understand...

Saturday, May 11, 2013

but what if i'm not angry?

in all seriousness i am really quite a happy person... most of the time i am not angry, but that's ok cuz all i have to do is look around at what human beings do to each other and to children and to animals and to the planet and a good fuck this shit comes right up on me...

if that doesn't happen to you, well, fuck you too...

Thursday, April 25, 2013

free trial

life must be a free trial period for whatever comes next because there is no way anyone who knew the truth would record this crap for any reason, though egos are fragile and deluded enough to think someone might care, i supposed...

so what...

Friday, April 05, 2013

caring

The delusion of caring that passes for caring among humans, like most human delusions, repulses me.

If this is too real for you, fuck off.

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

random time

sometimes the date and time stamped on an entry in this or any blog has great meaning and sometimes, perhaps most times, it is meaningless... you can only have a clue as to which is which or when if you ask for it, but be prepared, for the answer may be a whole lot more than you are looking for... you can fuck yourself for being a superficial twit and get pissed on or you can suck it up and swallow your pride if you really want to know something... but chances are, you have no clue as to what you really want to know... no wonder you get those odd silent stares when you speak...

if you only knew the truth about your limited conscious awareness, you'd realize that most of the time you are getting fucked up the ass while giving someone a blowjob anyway and you don't even know it...

what time is it now?...

Thursday, March 07, 2013

this is not for you

you don't care enough to get it, like most humans, maybe even all humans, so this is not for you except when i am telling you to fuck off because you don't care enough to get it... this is the where only the truest hearts, the most honest minds, and the most aware beings might find a shred of connection amidst the vitriol and sloppy farts... after all, if someone spits on you you likely take offense, but if a lover drools in your mouth you you likely continue sucking on her tongue... it's a matter of perspective and you are definitely not a lover or in any way an intimate...

if you think this does not apply to you, apply within...

if you dare...

Thursday, February 21, 2013

you don't know what love is

you think you do, or maybe thought you did, but if you stop sharing your love then you do not love... you can tell yourself you care and you can tell yourself you hurt and create all sorts of rationale in your head for not sharing, but love is not love unless it is shared... the bullshit most people pass off as love is neediness, insecurity, or superficial hormonal impulses that lead to disappointment and pain, even tragedy, because the expectations are much higher than you can give, unless you love... what you do is fear and seek communal comfort to quell your fear, but that is not love... get over your fears and you may begin to understand...

Saturday, February 02, 2013

keep your delusions to yourself

i mean, unless we are sleeping together, sharing intimate space, or actually bodily fluids, your delusions are your delusions and i do not want them in my way... whether you think there are spirits in the sky or ghosts in your belfry or even some rodent that can predict the weather, i am not interested in your mental illness unless we actually are sharing something real... if you do not get this, you are probably deluded so before you hurt yourself, just shut up and go away...

Sunday, January 20, 2013

if i wanted you to read this i would tell you about it

you are probably just another asshole like most humans, ignorant of your own sensory ability, blinded by the fears you've been taught since before you could walk or talk or think for yourself, condemned to stupidity for your entire life, and worst of all, buying the belief that your life actually means something profoundly wonderful... it's all bullshit, get over it, and wake up... if you aren't laughing, you missed the point, no probably about it...

Saturday, December 08, 2012

stupidity reigns

the hypocrites rule, even if you miss out, you will dig your own grave in the end... elect another corporation... pray to another king... give into your fears and give up your rights and freedoms, it's easier when you are not responsible for your actions, when you are told what to do, when you don't have to think...

Sunday, November 11, 2012

because nobody cares enough

people pretend to care, but nobody really cares enough... the bullshit people claiming to emulate the jesus character are the worst as they bleed hypocrisy, condemning and killing and creating poverty and starvation and hatred while pretending they are righteous and holy... those emulating other supposedly good kind and loving savious are no better... they pretend goodness as they are killing their neighbors... they are worms feeding on the corpse of humanity...

Saturday, October 13, 2012

don't wanna be angry

but fuck this humanity hypocrisy and if you don't know what i mean, you just may be a moron and part of it, but before i say fuck you too, i'll give you the chance to explain... and in case you ever gave a fuck, whatever is not considered an explanation...

Thursday, October 04, 2012

Thursday, September 13, 2012

still are

nothing personal, but nobody really cares beyond their personal bubbles, their sphere of influence, their ability to perceive and understand and control... if you thought differently, you were wrong... still are...

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

you miss out

lately this place has been visited, yeah, someone, maybe you, stopped by here and maybe you even read the words... maybe you even left a comment and i didn't notice... but nobody read this one and because of that, it continues... and you miss out...

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

it's because

it's because so few people are not psychopaths (as if you could understand anything)... how can you know what you do not know... how can you open your mind to something you are too afraid to even imagine as a possibility?... imagine no possessions, can you?... can you imagine no countries?... can you imagine no religion?... pretty song, but you are too afraid to actually free yourself from your need for spiritual and jingoistic hate (no less possessiveness and greed) to even begin to understand the wisdom, no less actualize the words... you are the disease, the virus, the cancer killing yourself and trying to kill this planet... and if you were only a little more intelligent than an ape, you'd know the planet will survive and you will not... but you ignore and re-write history in your egocentric madness to quell your fears and believe you are some sort of hero... humans may be the stupidest sentient species in the universe, no wonder nobody else wants contact... good laugh, huh?...

dolts...

Friday, July 27, 2012

blindness is relative

are you one of the fools who believe what you do not see is not there?... pathetic... you lived your entire life and you never knew what you missed...

Sunday, July 15, 2012

people are cruel

fear makes people cruel... even though it hurts them inside, they become numb to it and justify it by believing they must be cruel to survive... they must kill... they must hate... getting paid to be cruel is the norm... step on each other in the climb to the top... win at all costs... kindness is weakness... caring is weakness... the best liar wins... trust is weakness... be kind, caring, truthful, vulnerable, try it, you'll end up with nothing... show me proof otherwise if you can...

Thursday, June 28, 2012

the psycho path


most rational aware conscious people

do not get

nearly enough credit


for not

being

violent psychopaths...

Sunday, June 17, 2012

shit yeah

just for the record, all kidding aside (all shitting you aside too), if you followed every link in the previous entry then what the fuck?... why are you still here (or not here, depending on perspective)?...

my left tit thanks you.

Saturday, June 09, 2012

seriously now?

or seriously not, as in seriously, NOT! but fucking WHAT?!!?!! and really, now who takes any of this shit seriously, anyway... really?... no REALLY!! WHAT??!?!?!... it's all bullshit anyway, in case you were too stupid to realize the obvious... you can get fucking offended or shake your head pathetically with lame aspirsions boucing around between your ears (as if you had room for thinking at all) or you can get lost in mindless videos but the truth is (right, believe this) nothing is really as it seems, WHAT?!?!?... sappy pathetic fantasies as if you want to be with me or even ancient rhetoric, eros, saphos, pathos, ethos, or something like that... this?... WHAT?!?!?!... and in the end it all just may be relative opinions and complaints (or comments and complaints, depending on perspective)...

Friday, May 04, 2012

any day now

i just might catch up here (as if i was never gone as if that would be something new, screw) when i have a moment to barf up some seriously special vitriol about whatever sticks in my craw about whatever anytime because, you know, life in this world is full of shit (people produce more of it than anything else, especially in the west, cuz people eat so much more than they need to survive, which is just one of the problems with people), but for tonight i will just remind myself this place exists and so does this part of me... being nice, don't let it fool you too much... people do that, you know?...

Friday, April 06, 2012

empathy

you can pretend it's ok, but empathy sucks... the world is full of depressed suicidal sado-masochistic psychopaths and you want to feel the way they feel?... you must be one too... it's the brainwashing you get from birth that convinces you that being a martyr is a good thing, that dying for a cause is a good thing, that a life of self-less sacrifice is a good thing, but you hate actually doing it so much you become torn into a bi-polar depressed suicidal sado-masochistic psychopath... and you pretend not to know it...

happy fucking birthday...

Saturday, March 17, 2012

justice for none

ever wonder what it might be like to be the person who controls everything?... is there someone who does have that power or is that just a fantasy or conspiracy theory?... come on, can you use your mind at all?... ever wonder why people are so stupid to believe that if a small group of people, like rich bankers, for instance, controlled everything it must be either a far fetched conspiracy theory - or evil (for those who believe it), but if an invisible person who lives in the sky controls everything in this hellish world of torture and suffering, that guy to be worshipped and unconditionally trusted?...

morons...